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Delving Deeper Into "Dark Thoughts"

Delving Deeper Into “Dark Thoughts.” 

By Jessi Teich

October 10th, 2017 was World Mental Health Day. I couldn’t think of a better time for my song “Dark Thoughts” to be released. Many times, I write a song and don’t completely understand where the lyrics come from until some time down the road. This song is a perfect example of that. 

I have always been interested in learning about mental health and the therapeutic value of music within the context of treatment for various mental health diagnoses. I know from personal experience that music has the potential to add so much value to a person’s life whether times are good, times are bad, and anywhere in between that. 

Those of you who are familiar with the DSM-V have knowledge of the specific diagnoses that I am speaking of in this song. Since most of us don’t have this knowledge at our fingertips, I’d like to take the time to do a short lyrics analysis to further your understanding of these important diagnoses that you or your loved ones may live with on a daily basis. After all, knowledge, awareness, and dialogue are all powerful players in helping to “normalize” mental health. 

Remember, there is help available to you no matter how bad things are. You just have to reach out. 

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org

https://www.mentalhealth.gov/get-help/immediate-help/index.html

http://www.mentalhealthamerica.net/conditions/finding-help-when-get-it-and-where-go

XOXO,

Jessi

“Dark Thoughts” Lyric Analysis

It’s like I am alone in a crowded room

Nowhere to go for the afternoon

Depression: including major depressive disorder, persistent depressive disorder, and double depression. People with a mood disorder such as depression may feel alone even when surrounded by others. 

I’m climbing the walls but I’m stuck like glue

I’m holding it in, but it’s all over you

Anxiety: including generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, obsessive-compulsive disorder, phobia, social anxiety disorder, and post-traumatic stress disorder. People with anxiety sometimes suffer from the inability to do something because they are panicked and scared for their lives on the inside.

Feelin’ the bass thump inside my head

Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD): Many times people on the spectrum cover their ears because noises are very loud and overstimulating. 

Light as a feather like I ain’t been fed

Anorexia Nervosa/Bulimia Nervosa (AN/BN): Inability to have regular eating habits because of distorted cognitions about weight, self-image or the “perfect” body. 

Please don’t mistake

No baby I ain’t complaining

I find these dark thoughts entertaining

These are touchy lyrics because they can refer to schizophrenia in a certain type of light (delusions), but also confront how others perceive people with mental illness (scary, evil, bad).

So send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

Send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

Send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

Send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

This refers to the resounding feeling that people who live with mental illness have when they are pushed through the mental health system and/or they are surrounded by people who don’t understand their illness and in turn don’t have the support they need. 

Come on give me a taste you know I just want one

Promise to leave after I am done

You know I’m addicted to it I can’t stop

Nobody else will do your love’s on top

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD): a type of anxiety disorder. The symptoms can include unwanted and repeated thoughts, feelings, images, and sensations (obsessions) and participate in behaviors in response to these. 

So send me on my way, without you

I’m gonna live another day, without you by my side

Come on and send me on my way, without you

I’m gonna live another day, without you by my side

This lyrical section imparts a ray of hope and strength that people with mental health diagnoses may be able to achieve with the right help and support system. 

 

Just the lyrics:

“Dark Thoughts” written by Jessi Teich

Produced by Fabian Mazur & Dee Adam

Released by Lowly Palace

Listen to it here: https://soundcloud.com/lowlypalace/jessi-teich-dark-thoughts

 

It’s like I am alone in a crowded room

Nowhere to go for the afternoon

I’m climbing the walls but I’m stuck like glue

I’m holding it in, but it’s all over you

 

Feelin’ the bass thump inside my head

Light as a feather like I ain’t been fed

Please don’t mistake 

No baby I ain’t complaining

I find these dark thoughts entertaining

 

Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh

I find these dark thought entertaining 

Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh

I find these dark thought entertaining

 

So send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

Send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

Send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

Send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

 

Come on give me a taste you know I just want one

Promise to leave after I am done

You know I’m addicted to it I can’t stop

Nobody else will do your love’s on top

 

Feelin’ the bass thump inside my head

Light as a feather like I ain’t been fed

Please don’t mistake 

No baby I ain’t complaining

I find these dark thoughts entertaining

 

Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh

I find these dark thought entertaining 

Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh

I find these dark thought entertaining

 

So send me on my way, without you

I’m gonna live another day, without you by my side

Come on and send me on my way, without you

I’m gonna live another day, without you by my side

 

So send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

Send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

Send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

Send me on my way, send me on my way, send me on my way

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Fiji: Days 22-30

I have come upon the end of my month long excursion to Fiji. It has been the experience of a lifetime. Traveling is so many things: enlightening, immersive, exhausting, inspiring, educational, beautiful, and necessary. My last several days have been filled with so much reflection and gratefulness. Thank you to everyone who has encouraged me in my travels. I am so lucky to have an incredible support system. Hopefully I can honor Fiji by carrying some of the best parts of it back home with me. Bula vinaka Fiji! Xo! JT

Beautiful hike at Sleeping Giant. 

Beautiful hike at Sleeping Giant. 

Sleeping Giant hike. 

Sleeping Giant hike. 

Orchid garden. 

Orchid garden. 

Alien looking orchids. 

Alien looking orchids. 

Carmen, Diana, and me at the Sleeping Giant. 

Carmen, Diana, and me at the Sleeping Giant. 

Vuda point (where the Polynesians first landed on Fiji). 

Vuda point (where the Polynesians first landed on Fiji). 

Carmen and me overlooking Vuda point. 

Carmen and me overlooking Vuda point. 

Heading out to the farewell dinner cruise. 

Heading out to the farewell dinner cruise. 

Denarau Island sunset #1. 

Denarau Island sunset #1. 

Denarau Island sunset #2. 

Denarau Island sunset #2. 

Denarau Island sunset #3. 

Denarau Island sunset #3. 

Stairway that leads to endless possibilities...  Final thought: If you find a path that tugs at your heart, tickles your brain, or peaks your interest, take it. You may not know where it will lead, but the process of getting there, may change your life. :)

Stairway that leads to endless possibilities... 

Final thought: If you find a path that tugs at your heart, tickles your brain, or peaks your interest, take it. You may not know where it will lead, but the process of getting there, may change your life. :)

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Fiji: Days 14-21

Hey All!! It has been difficult to post because so much has happened (and the wifi is not so great), so I will try and catch you up from the last week. One of the most profound aspects of this trip so far has been the village stay in Votua Lalai. This village, by our standards, is very poor, but they welcomed us into their home, cooked us a huge feast, served us endless bowls of kava, and gave us their beds to sleep in. I spent most of the night playing with the kids and singing songs with the musicians. It was unforgettable. Since then, we have transitioned to Nadi (pronounced Nandi) and had the chance to visit an orphanage called Treasure Home. We brought toys and school supplies for them and had the opportunity to sing and play games. The women who worked at the orphanage were so happy we came to spend time with the children. All in all, a great week. XO! JT

Kava ceremony in Votua Lalai with members of the village. 

Kava ceremony in Votua Lalai with members of the village. 

A woman from the village took over serving the kava, which tends to be less common.

A woman from the village took over serving the kava, which tends to be less common.

This is our beautiful feast which we ate with our hands (makes me want to throw away all of my flatware)! 

This is our beautiful feast which we ate with our hands (makes me want to throw away all of my flatware)! 

A sweet snap of Mya & Delia. 

A sweet snap of Mya & Delia. 

The kiddos and we became fast friends. 

The kiddos and we became fast friends. 

Jam session. 

Jam session. 

The chief came by to greet us and chat for a while. Although I didn't get a photo with him, I did get a photo of his pretty, blue home!

The chief came by to greet us and chat for a while. Although I didn't get a photo with him, I did get a photo of his pretty, blue home!

This photo was taken at Treasure Home. All of these children are considered orphans and are living here full time. They were so sweet and loved playing with us.  

This photo was taken at Treasure Home. All of these children are considered orphans and are living here full time. They were so sweet and loved playing with us.  

We visited a kava market in Nadi. This is a photo of what kava root looks like before it's ground into powder. 

We visited a kava market in Nadi. This is a photo of what kava root looks like before it's ground into powder. 

This is the Hindi temple in Nadi. Very ornate and beautiful. 

This is the Hindi temple in Nadi. Very ornate and beautiful. 

Below are a few photos some of my colleagues took from previous excursions:

Blue starfish! 

Blue starfish! 

Driftwood teepee. You can write me at: Jessi Teich, 1 Driftwood Lane, Somewhere on the beach in the Fiji Islands... ;) 

Driftwood teepee.

You can write me at: Jessi Teich, 1 Driftwood Lane, Somewhere on the beach in the Fiji Islands... ;) 

This lovely caffeinated concoction is called a niuccacino! 2 shots of espresso with local coconut milk and coconut cream all poured into an authentic coconut shell. "Niu" (pronounced new) is the Fijian word for coconut, hence "niu"caccino. :)

This lovely caffeinated concoction is called a niuccacino! 2 shots of espresso with local coconut milk and coconut cream all poured into an authentic coconut shell. "Niu" (pronounced new) is the Fijian word for coconut, hence "niu"caccino. :)

Me loving my niucaccino. 

Me loving my niucaccino. 

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